"The Pain I Once Felt" - a poem written by Caronti "Che'" Johnson

"The Pain I Once Felt"

The pain I once felt

 was so unpredictable, yet obvious.

The pain I once felt,

 was nothing a mother or father would ever imagine their child experiencing.

The pain I once felt,

 had suddenly gone from curiosity to a bad habit.

The pain I once felt,

was a disease that I had allowed myself to take grasp of.

The pain I once felt,

caused me to continuously find numbness through putting a razor to my arm.

The pain I once felt, 

caused me to feel that cutting myself was no harm.

Repeatedly....

Cutting here and there,

Just to get minor issues out of my hair.

So many people attempt to feel the pain I once felt,

my advice to them is to have faith and believe in yourself.

The pain I once felt, 

I no longer feel anymore.

Through Christ who strengthens, 

I can overcome anything I undergo.

Love the skin you're in,

you're not defeated until you allow your weaknesses to win. 

The pain I'd once felt, 

I'd never again want to feel.

I thank God daily for giving me the ability to heal.

Because the pain I once felt,

is no longer real.
I'm writing to tell you that if I can, you can too...
it's all about self-love,
and that starts within you.

"Spend the Night" - Malcolm Kelly

"Spend The Night"

Malcolm Kelly is back with something nice and slow for the ladies! Take a listen as he spits about this special lady of his. This track is just a preview of what you can expect from Kelly's mixtape. In the meantime, check out the track above!! ANTI or WEAK?

"Underrated (Intro)" - That Guy Freaky Ty

"Underrated (Intro)"

Tired of being slept on? Well, That Guy Freaky Ty most certainly is! Ty is an artist born and raised on the South side of Chicago in the Englewood area. He began his career with the group HGNC. As a member of HGNC, he has became much more than just your average "rapper". Ty has not only matured and progressed as a lyricist, but also as an engineer, producer, and group leader. He was featured on HGNC's first official mixtape entitled, "Gangsta Party", which was released August of 2012. Take a listen as Ty introduces his recently released first solo mixtape entitled, "Underrated", which is available for download on Datpiff.com. 

The Fix (Addicted) - a poem written by Dominique Conston

"The Fix (Addicted)"

A baby is born, new life is created.

Created accidentally, yet for a purpose.

Usually a learning experience for the young ages.

Unprotected sex, leading to this new life.

How will this baby survive?

Too late to kill it, it's well alive.

The mother herself is barely holding on.

Minimum wage job, addicted to drugs.

Past due bills, almost out of a home.

The father was a dealer, basically a stranger.

He wanted his money, but she didn't have it.

So she undressed and said, "Here you can have it."

So he took it, grabbed it, jabbed it...

All while she was full of her habit.

A year later, that baby is still fatherless.

The mother wants better.

But the drugs say otherwise...

The baby is hungry, she's high, as the baby cries.

No diapers, few clothes.

A few hits, and she's off into the skies.

Hidden in darkness, she remains disguised.

But inside there's a great woman.

Years ago, she was beyond stunning,

Beautiful she was, had every guy wanting.

Until that day...

She went broke and needed a fix.

So she went and got it, it helped her temporary pain.

Five minute fix, now a frequent addict.

She never thought this would happen.

The baby is barely making it,

Any handouts, she's taking it.

Until those people came, and said they're taking it.

So they took the poor baby.

One look at her and all they could say was "poor lady".

A week passed, she hasn't come out of the house.

Notes of eviction, she floats in her addiction.

Yet, it's more than addiction.

She's not herself, she needs help.

Missing her baby, the inner her is coming out.

A wise man showed up.

Nurtured her, fed her,

Sent her to rehab, for a real fix.

It only took six.

Six months, no longer an addict.

Working on a recovery, realizing a new discovery.

A year passed, she's still clean.

Working hard everyday, but she's missing one thing

She wanted her son back.

Without him, the sun's black.

She went to visit him, he is two now.

One look and all she could do was cry.

Tears of joy, as he plays with the toy.

Was she worthy of him?

She never got him back....